My youngest muse...

October

I woke up from having a nightmare, a dream I have in real life had turned on me. It was a different version of something I have dreamt before. I want to run from this but I can't because you can't run from what haunts you on the inside. They say that hope is the last thing that abandons a person but awake I have decided to abandon hope in a try to spare myself a lot of lost time.

Self-portrait

Day of reckoning (part one)

My niece close to the place where I grew up

Dreamy beauty shoot

In September I met up with make-up artist Jenny Beckman (http://jennybeckman.se/) and model Sarah Amy Eckardt (http://www.facebook.com/pages/Sarah-Eckardt/308383905846084) in Pildammsparken in Malmö. The weather was lovely this morning when we had decided to have a beauty shoot. Sarah is also and actress and I think you can see that in the pictures. She was a joy to work with and she understood my dreamy vision perfectly. I love working with Jenny, she is an artist when it comes to make-up and this time she also did a big parts of the styling. (The fur is fake)

For the first time ever I am able to show you how I work during a photoshoot. My friend and film-maker Cesar A. Ortis came along for the photoshoot and he filmed it all. If you click on this link you will be able to see the result. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qES7QnAQW2E&feature=youtu.be (I'm sorry for my strange English, but I am Swedish after all) Extra thanks to Mushtak Awad who created the music for the video. I just love when good people come together to be creative.

 

Breath fire

If tomorrow comes

I wanna waste my love on you like a pearl merchant

I'm ready to learn what it takes to burn

I'm gonna let you show me what it means to breathe fire

(Niki and the dove)

Nightmare

When I lost you...

Self portrait, New York

Busy woman

These six past months have been crazy busy and I still have so much work ahead of me. I have planned every single day to be able to keep my deadlines to clients and the last time I had a free day was in Italy in September. But I love to bitch about it, I love to be super busy because lord knows it's not easy to have your own business and it has taken me a while to get to where I am. I'm already booked for eight weddings next year, the latest one in October. I love to bring joy to other people by doing something I love. It's a wonderful feeling knowing that you have found your calling and that one of your dreams are kind of coming true...

Last night I dreamt that someone had stolen my cameras. I woke up crying...Yes I do have other things on my mind than photography! Next month I will fly to London to have adventures together with a dear dear friend of mine that I miss very much. I Can't wait to see London, it has been 14 years since I was there the last time. Now I will crawl into bed because I am dead tired!

Stockholm 2012

Mountains

Documenting your life in pictures has it's pros and cons. I just stumbled upon a folder of images I had hidden away and it surprised me how painful it was to see them...to remember the bright moments that are forever gone. They say time heals everything but sometimes I wonder. It's strange to treat a person as if it's dead when it's still very much alive, it's strange to shut someone out that used to play such a big part. One day I will look at the photos I had hid away without feeling sad and maybe one day I will be able to meet you without being angry.

Morocco 2010

Ghost town

 All of these ghost towns I keep travelling through
All of these traffic signs and lonesome bars blind the view
I swear I can be better
I could be more to you
But there are things that line my path
That I just had to do

 Maybe I should just turn around
And walk away
For no matter how much I really do want to stay
You know I can't, No it's too late

(Ghost town First Aid Kit)

New York 2009